Red Hot Love

Sunshine, finally..

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 14:28:49 GMT

Here's a little update on my life:

-been working at the loft for about a month and a 1/2 now and i'm making mad money :-) Oh and my boss is finally referring to me as "hunnie" which has got to be a good sign.. (well if you knew terry, you'd understand)
-People at work are lovely and i get along with everyone, except for one person.. and i don't want to get into it.
-Becca is working for me tonight so i can go to marcias to celebrate kristis birthday, and i didnt even ask her to take my shift! (but now im working on fathers day)
-Ron and i have our one year tomorrow :-) (june 17)
-We will be leaving for old orchard beach tomorrow morning to spend the day & night there..i'm really excited
- My m+d are picking up our new puppy in CT tomorrow morning. Her name is Zoie and she'll be 8 weeks old and absolutely fucking adorable.
-Joy and i will be finally celebrating a mutual day off together today and are going antique and fathers day shopping and maybe some pool lounging.
- going to DMB @ Fenway on July 7th with Ron, can't wait!
-i think i might be going to rascal flatts in boston with becky in September, which is a long time away, but i can start saving my money.
- becky's still in florida and i miss her dearly.. joy and i are unhatched without her...
-i finally splurged and got my nails done, i felt i needed to do some fun pampering for myself for once..
-My dad's in Mexico.
- My parents will be leaving me with the house on July 8th night bc they are going to DMB @ Fenway and those lucky bastards get to spend the night in boston.
- we got a new manager @ work, and she's a doll.
-marcia's sister had a baby and i'm really happy for her & her sister
-i got up early this morning, which was a first all summer
-Ron's turning 21 on the 27th of June, i'm excited for him
-i have not yet gone to the beach.. but dying to.
- i need a tan or some sort of color, this pale-as-fuck thing isn't working anymore.
- the growth on my lip is finally going down
-my cell phone sucks
-i want a new digital camera.. one that can make black and white pictures.. i've had photography cravings lately
- i got good grades this semester, which means happy parents and a good summer
- i wanna go to warped tour.. anyone interested?
- i'm gunna miss camp and arts & crafts this summer with joy, sam and crew.
-Joy's Mary Kay party is next friday, and hopefully my mom and i will be attending. Free makeovers!
- Kristi's family birthday BBQ is next saturday! i can't wait! Oh and i'm not working then either :-)
- Jays house for a BBQ on the 4th? Not sure yet, but sounds amazing
-I can go to Canada this year with Ron! i'm totally pumped!

gotta hold on

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 00:35:02 GMT

only about 3 weeks to go and i'm out of here for the summer.

this weekend was such a tease being home. The sun was shining and i was having fun. I got to see my ronnie, my loves, & my family...and of course, like alwasys i just had to leave and come back here again.

easter was fun hanging out with the fam.. my mom made a pretty sweet dinner and ron and i went out for our first ice cream of the season.. i was craving king kone all weekend.. i settled for the big one. (pricey though)

happy 10 months sweetheart. hard to believe that's the amount of time we've been together.. seems like way longer~ but that's a good thing. many more babe. love you.

so yeah, im pretty much piled in enormous amounts of work right now, and i don't even really know how i managed time to come on this thing and type.. it's not like i do it on a daily basis and the world were to come to an end if i didn't write. needed some updatage.

the weather sucks all of a sudden.. it's freezing rain outside right now and it seems like just yesterday it was hot out. i'm so sick of this hot and cold bull. my allergies don't like it a bit.

i had a pretty good job interview on saturday, hopefully things will be going according to plan. it looked pretty good.

i miss being home already. i wish i didn't have to leave. theres so much that i need to do in the next three weeks and i'm really annoyed. I really think that if people could die from being stressed out, i'd already be dead.

i need a massage.

im out. lyb

This bitter wind

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 21:23:54 GMT

Well.. it's about 50 degrees below zero in this stupid town. I can't even walk anywhere without looking like i'm traveling to the Arctic.. with my hat and mittens.. how lame.

I can't wait for spring/summer. i wish it would just get here. Fuck everyone who's actually going somewhere for spring break.. i'm jealous.

Well, i got to spend a lovely weekend with my love and the roommates. Got to have some wonderful bonding time with Tiff and nick as well... that was nice. It's nice going to their apartment now and having people that i actually wanna hang out with and be comfortable around. Rather than the past homestead where it was just akward all the time due to different reasons. Definately like the new arrangement. * Thanks for letting me stay with you guys :-)

Ron and i are doing great as always.. distance can kinda sucks royally, but other than that, things are looking really good. I just can't wait for the summer.. when i have 4 straight months @ home, working, being with my boyfriend, hanging out with my loves that i miss do dearly.. it can't get here sooner!

My dad said he might be able to score me a sick job @ his work this summer.. possible internship maybe. I think that'd be pretty bomb-tastic. I would actually be making some decent cash, which i need SO bad.

This week is taking the best of me- 3 midterms, 3 papers due on top of that, meetings.. fuck me.

Pretty much every weekend from now until the end of the school year, i'm booked solid.. which blows. But i'm glad i atleast got to go to nashua to see my boyfriend for a last time in a while. Minus spring break.

time to fight the wind.

the sun is shining!!

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 19:33:16 GMT

Well.. it's thursday, no classes tomorrow.. thank god.
However i do have to make up a test and do tons of other shit that i missed on tuesday due to me visiting my sweetheart in nashua.
But it was all so worth it. I'm pretty sure i have the sweetest boyfriend in this entire world. Had a fab valentine's day and i'm really glad i got to spend it with the one person i wanted to spend it with. lyb
Payback's a bitch.. i got so much fucking shit to do it's unreal.. i feel so overwhelmed with projects, tests, quizzes, homework..plus all my make-up shit. Man, finishing college in four years is like leaving the party at 10. i wish i could just take like 4 classes every semester.. life would be cake.
i'm still trying to figure out what the hell i'm doing for abroad programs, or if i'm even doing one at all. i was thinking maybe the summer after my junior year.. that way i'll only be away for a month or so. where to? England? austrailia? pari?

It is fucking BEAUTIFUL out today!
i looked at the house we're living in next year.. it's pretty nice.. close to campus..but they had a lot closed off so we couldnt really see much on the inside. we could only walk through the halls.. The rooms look fairly decent though. hopefully it should be good.

Spring break in 3 weeks and counting. My spring break is gunna consist of looking for a job and hopefully working. i looked at my bank account today.. WHOOPS! i neeeeed to make money.. and a lot of it.

i have a little sister this semester. She's absolutely adorable and she's a red head and her name is pamela.. does it get any better than that? love her.

My birthday is coming up in i wanna say about a month and a week or two. i love birthdays. mmmm :-D i don't know if i like being in keene much on my birthdays.. but my mom always makes me the best damn dinners around. Shepards pie motha fuckas!

my dad is going to india today.. i hope he doesn't eat blowfish. don't ask.

i'm going to boston on saturday.. i'm pretty friggin excited! Should be a great day full of walking, subways, visiting friends, and a little shopping (due to my lack of money in my account) but you can't go to boston and not atleast do a little shopping.
Oh! and mmmmm roasted coconut! probably my FAVORITE part of boston.. by far.

i can't belive it's almost spring.. which means then it's almost summer. i feel like summer was JUST here.

conference last week was pretty bomb. met a lot of cool girls from all over.. and got tons of free food and fun stuff. (bags, t-shirts) definately worth it. P.S. if you ever want to rent a hotel room.. go to the Mariott!! they have the MOST comfortable beds in this entire world. i ain't messin.

i miss M-town. i havent had much time to keep in touch with my girls back home. i've been so busy with shit. i miss my boy. i miss my pup. and this sounds so queer but i miss my mom and dad. :-( My mom is so cute.. sending me a valentines package and all.. containing a gift card, a bracelet and chocolate.

class now. peace
lyamyb

way too much

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 05:36:28 GMT

Well.. i might as well update you on my life seeing as i rarely come on this thing anymore.

School has gotten the best of me this semester.. im fucked. I have to see how things go and decide whether or not i gotta peace out of one of my classes.

Ron and I are great :-) i couldn't be happier in my relationship. i love you and im sorry about everything i put you through. P.S. see you this weekend!

My abs hurt. This is due to extreme crunches at the gym yesterday and intense boot camp class today as well.. why do i put myself through this pain? it hurt to laugh today.. that's kinda pathetic. i guess i just have that bikini in the back of my mind. sweet jesus.

Saw two awesome comedians today in the NOC. Tony C and Jimmy Dunn (both were on comedy central and one was in a movie) kinda cool eh? I'd say.. for keene anyways. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. I needed it.

My cousin turns 21 this month.. god thats so fucked up. It seems like just yesterday we were running around in our underpants eating popcicles. weird how time flys.

I went out with Rochelle tonight. I love spending time with her. I love our coffee dates. I'm gunna miss her so much and its so hard to think the shes only gunna be here for a couple more months. Stupid seniors and their stupid graduating. I want her to stay forever. I'm getting emotional.

A lot of things to look forward to this month.. Well, Valentines day is in a couple weeks and i hopefully get to spend it with my handsome pants. Also, conference in Burlington on the 11th-12th and Boston on the 19th (for the day!) And this spring comes Dates, formal, and warm weather!! too excited!

I have no idea what im gunna do this summer job wise. i have a few things in mind, hopefully all goes as planned.

My mom and dad came up this weekend and took my roomie and i out to lunch and shopping. i miss them. It was nice to see them and spend time with them.

Ron comes this weekend. stoked! we need bonding time.

gotta read and sleep now.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 06:25:54 GMT

wow, it's been a while.

Looks like i'm going back to school sooner then i thought. I have about 4 or 5 days now.. depending on whether i decide to go back on sunday or monday. Might be moving next semester.

All ive done this vacation is pretty much work. a loooootttt. fuck them.

Plus side of this vacation include: *i got to spend a lot of time with my sweetie pie. * i got to spend a night up north at my friend Jays cabin which was bomb. *I made money. *i got some pretty sweet stuff for christmas. *i got to spend some time with my family and cousins. *had a pretty sweet new years. *spent lots of time with my friends, but not as much as i hoped. *Got to spend some decent giftcards at the mall.

Negatives include: *Broken cell phone.. and havent gotten a new one yet. *ate waaay too much food due to the holidays. *worked waaaaay too much. *Didnt get to sleep in as much as i hoped. *Didnt get paid as much as i should have. *Didnt get to spend any time with my school friends. *got really sick for a while.

The rest of this week consists of: working more, packing a lot, spending time with my family, boyfriend and friends. Hopefully some sort of last shing ding before departing. anyone? goodbye party? :-/

baby, thanks for being an amazing boyfriend. love you a lot and dont know what i would do without you.

P.S. thanks for the food at work. and taking me out to dinner last night. :-) I O U

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 07:07:52 GMT

It's that time of year again. A year in review... 2005 in a nutshell.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? 2005 was a wonderful year for me. A lot has happened.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year? joining Phi sig, falling in love, and getting my life together

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? the day i got my second semester freshman year report card.

4) Where were you when 2005 began? Gerry's.. drinking with all my faves :-)

5) Who were you with? the crew.. plus some.

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? Hopefully with the best friends in the world and the best boyfriend in the world.

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? above.

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? probably not, i actually don't even remember what my resolution was.

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Can't think of one yet.. something good.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005? yes.

11) If yes, with who? the sweetest thing that walked this earth, my new best friend, and my favorite person alive.

12) If yes, do they know? gee, i dont know.. of course! 6.17

13) Are you still in love with them? more and more everyday. (I'm sorry if it hasnt seemed like it lately) but i love you so much.

14) Do you regret it? never

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? yes. best thing i've ever done.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? yes.. many amazing people. 5 of my best friends.

17) Who are your favorite new friends? ron, julia,katie, jacqui, mi mi, tiffany

18) What was your favorite month of 2005? June.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? i don't think so..

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? i honestly don't even kno...

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? idk

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? yeah

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? Wedding Crashers.

24) What was your favorite song from 2005? ohio is for lovers.. for a reason

25) What was your favorite record from 2005? black eyed peas or hawthorne heights

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? i cant remember

2 ? 27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? idk...

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? probably

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? yeah,..i was such a loser.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? two\

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?yes

32) I'm making up 32. i have no clue.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? a lot.

34) Did you treat someone badly in 2005? probablly.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? yes.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005? Way too much

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? there's been a lot.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change any moment, what would it be? a lot of moments

40) What are your plans for 2006? i'm not sure yet.

We're going up from here.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 04:59:47 GMT

This week is almost over.

Tomorrow is my last day of classes in the fall semester. finals all next week.. woop de doo.

I will be spending my life in the library tomorrow night writing papers and studying. it's gunna blow.

I am going to Jacqui's house in West Newbury, MA this friday-sunday with katie and mi mi for her family Christmas party.. it's actually really fun. i went last year. There's a yankee swap and santa actually comes.. and there's madddd good food. Oh and she has a hot tub! and a wine cellar! It should be a good relaxing weekend.. i'm pretty excited.

This is julia's last weekend here. I'm gunna miss the little bugger. She's my little peanut. why is she of all ppl transferring? Damn college expenses.

Ron came up last weekend! It was nice spending time with my love since i won't be seeing him for two weeks. The weekend basically consisted of food and snuggling, what we do best :-) i miss him. Things are getting a lot better. *The roomie was rather open with me this weekend :-/ akward.

Christmas break is so close yet so far away. I think there's about 8 days now? YES! i need to go home so bad. i just need to get out of this place for a little while. I'm run down. i need privacy.

So i guess i might be living in the house next year. We're getting a bigger house too, so it should be bomb. I'm trying for a single. I need more space at this college. It's starting to really drive me nuts.

CVS is taking my sorry ass back for xmas break. ha lay lew yah! i need the money SO bad.

ANyways, im peacin out of this journal. lata. ifly.baby.

...Always on my mind...

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 05:28:53 GMT

1 more day til the weekend.

2 more days til i can throw my arms around him.

11 days til finals.

15 days til I'm home for a month for break.

25 days til Christmas.

31 days til 2006. weird.

Well this semester has been flying by like a speeding bolt of lightning. Things have been less stressful this week but will only get so much more stressful next week. Finals freak me out a little- just because my grades ride so much on them. It's like saying, "oh great job this semester, oh BTW your final is worth 50% of your grade. GOOD LUCK!" - fuckers.

My darling is coming down this weekend to the lovely Keene to see me! I can't wait! Things have been going well with him and i minus missing each other dearly..But it's so worth it. 7 months in december. HOLY CRAP. amazing :-D

Yeah so i'm broke. Good thing i got pretty much all of my x-mas shopping done over thanksgiving break. Still gots a few more things to pick up. Hopefully work will take my desperate ass back over christmas break. Of course they're gunna pull the whole.."only if you can work on all of the holidays..til midnight." fuckin A. What i do for money.

The stand has been dead as a doornail lately. stupid winter. I think i worked for an hour and 5 minutes Tuesday. And then he told me to not even bother coming in on Wednesday. Sweet- what's that? a whopping 10 dollars?

E-board next semester! So excited!! I finally get a big position with actual responsibilities. Holllaaaaaaa.

bed awaits my sleepy head.

missing you. loving you. thinking of you.

night biAtches.

Up up and Awaaaayyy

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 01:15:25 GMT

busy busy busy!

I've had so much on my plate lately school wise.. lot of papers and tests and shit.. thank god it'll be over soon (well, this semester anyways) i need a change.

We have another meeting tonight and then possibley going out with Rochelle. I need a coffee.. bad.

i feel so bored here sometimes, i feel like its the same routine every week and weekend- same classes, same people, same food, same parties.. i dont know, to me- it gets so old. I just seriously wish i had my own apartment so i could get off campus. Not that i dislike being on campus, but i just need some freedom, and i want to be able to have people come up from home and know that i have the room and that they're welcome. I feel so bad bc i don't want to over-invade katies space.. its hard enough sharing a room let alone having friends come up. I just want my own room for once in two years. I wanna be able to walk around naked and have more privacy.

Dates is this friday and im pretty stoked.. kinda bummed about the location, but hopefully it'll be good. Ron's coming up as my date.. woo hoo! Can't get enough of my love.. Wish i could be with him always..

Next time i go home home will probably be thanksgiving time.. i heart thanksgiving. I love the food- it's bomb. I just wish we were staying home instead of going to my grammies house.. i just want to stick around m-town so i can spend time with mis amigos y mi novio. :-( But i'll be home some of the days.. i can't wait for xmas break so i can have a month off to be home with the people i loveee...

I've been talking to gerry more often, which is really good- bc i miss her. I'm kinda upset that i've lost touch with some of my friends.

meeting time. loveulove

hung over

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 18:15:52 GMT

Going back to school today..

Norm and Kristen's wedding was last night, and i have to say i had a wicked good time. Must of had about 50 drinks and i felt like a bottomless pit. Took me a while to get drunk.. But it was nice to be able to drink for free :-) And with some cool kids.

I got to spend an amazing night with my darling in our sweet hotel room.. It was nice to be able to spend some time with him one on one before i go back to school, and even when we see each other we never really get to have any privacy, so it was great..

I hate goodbyes :-/ That's the worst part of a long distance relationship.. you have to say goodbye all the time. But i love seeing him so i'll do it any day of the week.

Tiff and i had some fun bonding experiences.. pretty much showed up late to the wedding, which was SO embarassing.. And that was after we couldnt find a fucking parking spot anywhere in the city of nashua, so we had to park in some spot a mile away that i praaayed wouldnt get towed, seeing as i was driving ron's car.. saw some guy pissing on the side of the road where we parked, and then we had to book it down main street in our heels and we waltz in right as the bride was about to stroll down the church.. sweeeeet.

yeah everyone was pretty much a shit show last night..dancing away to fun songs. haha Ron's mom ended up buying me a beer and i had it taken away from me at the bar.. that was pretty much sucky and embarassing as well. But we got our money back..

But anyways i think im gunna shower and get my life in order so i can get my ass back to school in one piece.

thanks for a great weekend love. you're amazing. iflylW

yippee Cai yay

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 19:18:35 GMT

Halloween weekend was a success.. had a pretty good time. I was a firefighter :-)

I was SO happy to go home and see ron on friday night. Ive been having a really tough time here lately, because of different reasons. I just really needed to go home for a night and have the one person i really care about calm me down. Sorry it was so late.. thanks babe.

Saturday i went out with my girls and had a great time. Think i ruined my feet with the shoes i was wearing.. but thank god my roommate let me wear her shoes home.

Next weekend is the wedding. I'm pretty excited.. finally got a dress n shit from my friend marie. So atleast i have that all set. I'm staying with ron on thursday night and then friday im going home :-) Get to see my puppy. is it sad that i really miss my dog? I'm probably gunna head to the mall and see if i can't score a dress for Dates the following weekend. i need something sassy. That should be fun.

i heart fall. It's been so friggin nice out here. The sun has actually been shining for once and the rain has stopped. Maybe the rivers will finally go down a little so we all dont have to FREAAK out everytime it rains and have to move cars to higher places and evacuate homes. Stupid keene.

is it bad that i can't wait for christmas vacay already? i just need a months breather. School is getting so overwhelming and i have so much going on. I have a huge serious speech to write, big story to write on genocide.. god damn. Oh and the one class i thought i was dominating in is getting SUPER intense. Ugh. i guess i just have to keep working my ass off.

i must go to spanish now.

i can't wait til next weekend! i flylW.

pumpkin fessst

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 20:08:26 GMT

i heart pumpkin fest. I had a ton of fun and i wish it wasn't over.. I loved having ron and joy here. I miss home so much and having them here was a treat. Friday night we went to a party and i had an awesome time! i dont know if i wanna look at mango rum again for a while though. I helped with the parking lot saturday morning for a fundraiser and i think we ended up doing really well :-)

I heart pumpkin fest food. I had the yummiest foooodies there. I didn't quite find the pumpkin i carved, but i can't say i was looking very hard. There was some really cute marriage proposals carved out of pumpkins which was a nice gesture.

i hate rain. Keene needs to stop raining. i don't know why its so thirsty. And we're still probably gunna get wilma's leftovers. And today katies car was no where to be found in the spot she parked it.. who would have known someone friggin towed it to the other side of the lot. Nice way of letting her know and get a partial heart attack..

I am doing really good in school, im proud of myself. i think i have some really great modivation this semester. i hope i keep it up.

Ron went bye bye and i really miss him. I get so friggin depressed every time i see him leave... or when i leave him. We're not gunna see each other for a few weeks until norm and kristin's wedding, which im really excited about! Can't wait! but he seizes to amaze me. love you.

For all of you who care so much when he spends time with me, i appologize. it's funny how we really dont see each other as much as you think we do. He planned on coming here for months, bc all i did was talk about it. and then one minute i'm telling him i wanna go home bc i miss HIS friends a lot, and hanging out with them.. and how i wanna come home soon and party with everyone soon and then at 4am he receives a phone call from some of them saying how hes such a terrible person for not being there when his friend got back from boot camp. are you kidding me? DO you even have a clue how excited he is that chris is home? yeah.. real mature guys.. he's fuckin stoked. Oh and btw, trevor- i know you had more to say to me, and i know you don't really care how i'm doing. nice message.

Halloween weekend? what to do, what to do? i have NO idea. and i dont know what the hell to be for it either!

ok, gotta go do an insane amount of homework and then go to my meeting at 6:30. peace out. (ifly)

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 18:45:59 GMT

my stupid computer friggin sucks. i have some sort of really messed up virus on it, and i cant get rid of it.. it might need some sort of special attention which means i might be losing it for a couple days. im pissed.

i have been so friggin stressed lately, i dont even know what to do. i owe so much money to so many places right now i dont even know how im gunna do it. And just to make things better, work has been dead so hes been letting me go early, which kinda sucks bc i need the money.

do i study abroad or not? that is the question. my mom and dad have been bugging me soooo much about it, they like need an answer now, which totally blows bc i dont even know what to do. i wanna go so bad bc its the chance of a life time and i have the chance to do it, but i dont wanna go bc i have so many things in my life here that i dont wanna miss out on, and that i love. i guess im just scared.

PUMPKIN FEST this weekend!! Hoo Raw! i am so stoked. Ron, joy and steve are coming up and i can't wait! oh, well and my family. I got a decent shift for the parking thing we have to do, so ill have the whole day to hang out and drink spiked apple cider and look at freaky pumpkins! night time is always the best though, because they light them all up and make sweet towers out of them. This is like the best weekend ever...

i hope this sore throat and cough goes away before this weekend. i friggin hate being sick

Well, i must do lots of homework now and pick classes for next semester in the library, bc ill be here for the rest of my liffffeeeeee!!!

*Thanks for everything sweeti, im sorry ive been so frustrated and stressed lately.. thanks for being there for me and still loving mee ;-)*

Been a while

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 17:03:48 GMT

im going home this weekend, finally. it's been almost two months since i last slept in my bed... it should be nice.

I have a doctors apt friday that i am not looking forward to.. i also think im getting sick :-/ i woke up with a sore throat and a cough.

Yeah so if you havent heard.. Keene was straight up flooded last weekend.. some of my friends here are still homeless because of damages. They have warnings everywhere at my school for another one. the river is really high, i had to move my car to a shitty parking spot bc i didnt want it to float away.. crazy that all of this happened in new hampshire.. and to think, i didnt even realize keene was flooding when i was walking through knee deep waters just to get to a party.. things we do here, i'll never know why. I thought the puddles were just really deep.. i should have looked around, the whole god damn town was a giant puddle..

i have been SO busy this past month, with rush, meetings, more meetings, classes, work, tests..

works going well.. making mad money at the stand, i just cant wait til i get more hours when Rachel has her baby..

Im going to rons tonight around 8 and then we're gunna run to the mall and franticly try to find my mom a birthday gift.. considering her bday was last monday.. oops. ( i guess you luck out when youre not home.. you get some extra shopping time) and then who knows :-)

i can't wait to see my puppy, which i hope is still a puppy when i get home.

i just had to take midterms this week, which is so strange, i didnt think we were already half way through the semester.

I have SO much coming up these next few weeks. Going home this weekend, pumpkin fest in keene the next weekend (cant wait!) break the next weekend, then the wedding Nov 4th, and the next weekend is my dates!and then thanksgiving! holy wow.. Booked for months.

But now i have to study for my News writing midterm. wish me fucking luck.

<3me

surveeeyyyy

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 04:16:39 GMT

1. Full Name: Nicole Christine Taylor
2. Nicknames: nicky, nipps (dont ask)
3. Birthday: April 7th
4. Place of Birth: Nashua
5. Zodiac Sign: Aries
6. Male or Female: girly

7. Grade: sopomore in college
8. School you go to: KSC
9. Occupation: Hot dog stand :-D and cvs at home.. need something new
10. Residence: currently- keene, home- Merrimack
11. Screen Name: heavnlydvine

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: red head baby

13. Hair Length: meh.. shoulders
14. Eye color: probably the above.

16. Height: 5'3ish
17. Braces?: thank god no

18. Glasses?: yeah but i wear contacts.. only sometimes my glasses
19. Piercings: ears, cartiledge, belly button, tongue.

20. Tattoos: still thinking.. of what i want of course.
21. Righty or Lefty: righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Katelyn
23. First Award: ummm.. karate? some art award in elem?
24. First Sport You Joined: umm.. soccer.
25. First pet: Jonna.. boxer.
26. First Real Vacation: uh prob florida when i was young.
27. First Concert: hahahah BBMAK suckas! first row

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: oh wow.. tough.. probably cold mountain creek

30. TV: real world, laguna, gillmore girls, cops, emrill, that new reality show
31. Colors: green and purple.
32. Rapper: yo yo yo.. i gotta say that I.dont.know! pretty sweet eh?
33. Band: lots
34. Song Right Now: my humps!

35. Friend: my sweetheart, joy, gerry

36. Candy: skittles
37. Sport right now: sitting? lol. probably basketball
38. Restaurant: i dont really have one. i like fire and ice in boston. i just love food pretty much
39. Favorite brand to wear: AE, banana rep, charolette rousse.. whatever i feel like. everything looks cute :-)
40. Store: everything!! im a pheeene.
41. School Subject: comm, writing
42. Animal: penguins, monkies, some sort of bear?

43. Book: ya know.. mags

44. Magazine: cosmo
45. Shoes: i love em' all.
___Currently___

46. Feeling: bored as hell... why do you think im doing this??
47. Single or Taken?: in love.
48. Have a crush?: i love.

49. Eating: nothing. NO MORE.
50. Drinking: propel.. grape.
51. Typing: umm

52. Online? always..

53. Listening To: the TV
54. Thinking About: snuggling with a certain someone.

55. Wanting To: sleep, end the week, see my darling..
56. Watching: some rap show.. weird.

57. Wearing: button down blue, white and pink striped shirt with jeans (wanted to look cute :-/)
___Future___

58. Want Kids? not for a while.
59. Want to be Married?: obviously
60. Careers in Mind: some sort of TV, NEWSPAPER, MAG journalist/editor
61. Where do you want to live?: somewhere in new england, or down south, or in some place random like colorado or something.

62. Car: grand am
__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex?___

63. Hair color: brown.
64. Hair length: SHORT
65. Eye color: beautiful green

66. Measurements: youre perfect.
67. Cute or Sexy: Cute as a button.
68. Lips or Eyes: uh ur eyes make me melt, ur lips make me horny

69. Hugs or Kisses: they are definately a package deal
70. Smart or funny: both.
71. Easygoing or serious: easy going, but can be serious when needed.
72. Romantic or medium: omg romantic for sure. im a sucker for that stuff

74. Sensitive or Loud: a little bit of both.
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship worthy for sure..
76. Sweet or Caring: isnt that the same thing kinda? both is definate.
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: hesitant. i dont wanna bail you out of jail.

___Have you ever?___

78. Kissed a Stranger: yes.. and look what happened? im in love.
79. Had Alcohol: obviously.

80. Smoked: yes.

81. Run Away From Home: when i was little i packed my bag and sat on the rock in our front yard.. thats about it.

82. Broken a bone: i think one of my toes, i just never got it fixed.

83. Gotten an X-ray: yeah.
85. Broken Someones Heart: yeah.. back in the day.
86. Broken Up With Someone: yeah

88. Cried At School: yeah

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: i dont really know.

90. Miracles: definately

91. Love At First sight: yes, bc it happened to me
92. Ghosts: sometimes..
93. Aliens: only ET

94. Heaven: i dont know
96. Hell: dont know

97. Angels: dont know

98. Kissing on The first Date: definately.
99. Horoscopes: yeah i guess
___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is there someone you want but you know you can't have? nope. i have everything i could ever want.

missing home

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 04:11:52 GMT

i havent written in this thing in a while..

I have been so busy it's been unbelievable. My sweetheart came to see me this past weekend, which was amazing.. i felt like i hadnt seen him in months, even tho it was only a few weeks. Departing was something i wish didn't have to happen, but i guess thats just what has to happen. We've been awesome though. i love him more and more every day... feels like a dream.

My parents also came to see me on Sunday to take me out to lunch and my mom and I went shopping at a few stores in keene. i ended up getting a few cute things which is exciting :-) I miss the fam, and my rents brought up the puppy as well, which is still a puppy thank god.. but i miss her being so little.

I have a shit load of things coming up. Since there's rush all this week and next week my schedule has just built up. We have a mardi gras party on Friday night and a Cocktail party saturday, which i think should be a lot of fun. Except im staying sober for the cocktail party, which really doesnt matter to me.. because i can still have a great time either way.

I am coming home not this coming weekend, but the next weekend for my doctors appointment on Friday. It'll be nice to sleep in my own bed.. and see my boy. and eat home cooked meals. If anyone wants to hang out, hit me up :-)

So yeah.. i work at a hot dog stand now. haha It's so much fun, i love it! It's really good money too, which is nice to put gas in my tank and allow me to have a little bit of fun as long as paying my dues and other shit. Come visit!

but i think i shall go off to bed now. i have to get up at 7:30am tomorrow.. ahhh! leave love. miss everybody lots :-/

love love.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 17:34:04 GMT

comment n do it!

T E L L M E :

The color of most of the clothes you own: green and blue

The number of pillows you sleep with every night: two, one for me and one for you

What will you be doing in 1 hour: going to News writing and logic

What room you are in at this very moment: my room

What you were doing 12 am last night: talking to snookums online

How old you will be in 10 years: 29.. holy shit..

D E S C R I B E :

What your teeth look like: umm white? straight

What you're wearing: jeans and a brown shirt

What you think you'll be doing in 10 years: married, some sort of child.. working and making good money

D E S C R I B E F O R M E Y O U R :

CD player: silver..big (at home) my laptop is my CD player at school

Wallet: light pink with a couple other different shades of pink stripes off to the side

Alarm clock: black and obnoxious

Hair: red, about shoulder length.. with a few blonde highlights :-)

Toothbrush: white and yellow

Computer: Hp lap top.. black and silver ( the 8 key is currently missing, so i have to push the little hump)

Bed: a raised, extra long twin bed.. stupid college.

Notebook: which one? all sorts

W H A T C O L O R I S / A R E :

Your nails: clear nail polish which is currently chipping, toes are pink

Your eyes: greeeeen

D O Y O U :

Like riddles: no. they're annoying and confusing

Like trampolines: when i stay on them..

Burn or tan: lightly tan but mostly burn.

Wear braces: nope, i got lucky

Check your mail regularly: yes

F I R S T :

Real memory of something: When i swallowed a penny during preschool naptime

Car: Silver mitsubishi galant... my pride and joy.. :-(

Job: first job? probably camp or CVS

Screen name: oh we don't go there..

Piercing/Tattoo: my ears

Independent home:hahaha

love: You

Enemy: eeee...idk

Big trip: Germany to visit my dad who lived there

Play/musical/performance: eeee..ummm.. i was Charolete in a Charoletes web play when i was young

L A S T : Cigarette: a long time ago.. very proud

Good cry: umm probably this past weekend

ibrary book checked out: ee.. do i still even have my library card?

Movie seen: in the theaters.. Wedding Crashers, and also Moulin Rouge with my roomie yesterday on tv

Book read: Logic (ugh) for free time.. Virgin Suicides

Time you were sick: Right now.. i feel like crap on top of crap.

Person you yelled at: my baby..sorry :-/

Beverage drank: Orange juice in the DC.. my mom always tells me to drink that when im sick

Crush: Ronald MacDonald :-)

TV show watched: Laguna beach last night

Shoes worn: my brown flip flops

CD played: hawthorne heights at the gym last night

Item bought: water

Annoyance: mouth noises.. and the STUPID CONSTRUCTION OUTSIDE MY WINDOW

Disappointment: myself for the way i acted in that stupid stupid stupid fight

Thing written by hand: spanish homework

Key used: does a card count? My ID

Word spoken: "whatever" i think.. im sorry

Ice Cream eaten: this awful M&M icecream at the DC.. totally unsatisfying

Time showered: an hour ago?

Time amused: gee idk.. lunch with everyone?

Time wanting to die: right now

Time in love: right now

Time hugged: this past weekend... i need a hug :-/

Time scolded: scolded? like hit? we did have a swat fight this weekend..

Time resentful: a lot of times

Chair sat in: this very desk chair

Time danced: this past weekend at a party

Poster looked at: my dashboard confessional one over my desk..

P I C K B E T W E E N :

Pen or pencil: depends.. notes pen, test pencil

Coke or Pepsi: gee.. i dont really care. Coke with Rum, pepsi if its all they got..

Butter or cream cheese: butter in my tators, cream cheese on my bagel

Leader or follower: well.. im not a follower.. but i dont know if i consider myself a leader..

Hot or cold: Cold.. bc you can always add layers.. and you can only take so many off..

Summer or winter: Fall

1 or 2: 1

First or last: first

Top or bottom: hahah TOP

R A N D O M N E S S :

Are you paranoid: yeah sometimes..

Miss you

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 05:06:35 GMT

well.. first weekend at school was definately a good time.

Got to see all my friends again and party hardy. It's nice to have all my girls back. i missed the crap out of them.

Friday was the biggest shit show of the weekend i would say.. my roomie and i show up at 4AM to realize we can't get in our building, so we had to call campus safety.. who says "Good morning ladies!" and then lets our asses in. how embarassing. sway much?? thats what countless games of beirut does to you i guess.

i like having katie as my roommate a lot. our room is super cute. but hot..

i miss you. i miss looking at you, holding you, hanging out with you, talking to you, kissing you, sleeping with you. It's unreal how much i think of you. i love you.

tomorrow i start classes. i get to play the fun ADD DROP week. BLAH.

good night mates.

one more day

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 21:08:20 GMT

Last night i spent with my love. We had a chinese food picnic on his bed and watched HOSTAGE. The movie was really good, and i loved snuggling with my boy for the last time before i leave for school.

this morning we said our goodbyes and he left for canada.. and im leaving to go back to school tomorrow morning. it was hard, but i know that we love each other and the distance will be okay. i know i will just look forward to seeing him so badly now while i'm away at school. ill think about him constantly.

This just couldnt have been a more emotional time of the month for me. it sucks. packing my room up truly puts me in a bad mood. i cant wait to get back and have freedom and be surrounded by people constantly, i miss my school friends a lot. but im gunna miss being home.

we're having a family dinner tonight, and then i hope to go out with my girl friends for a last night on the town.

school tomorrow

So many emotions

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 14:00:38 GMT

Havent written in a bit.. my appologies.

Well, this weekend was pretty bomb.. Friday was my last day of work at both jobs, which was and still is SUCH a relief. I feel like i can breathe again and possibley enjoy the last few days of my summer.

Friday night ron and i went out to dinner with norm and kristin at silver maple.. which was so gooood and such a feast! We were going to go to see 40 year old virgin, but it was sold out. so we went back to his house after and of course i fell dead asleep due to my long night at naticook. But it was nice to snuggle as always.

Saturday, my parents went away for the night up in maine.. with the dog :-) So during the day me and a few of the girls went shopping in tilton, after the beach day we planned for weeks had to be canceled due to rain.. Later that night, i made ron some dinner consisting of chicken, tortalini alfredo and green beans. Oh, and a delicious cake which i sprinkled I love you on.. And i had a few people over to celebrate my last weekend home. it was a nice small group of people so i felt at ease.

Sunday, Ron and i went down to keene so i could show him around and where i was going to be living for the next year, and we went out to lunch at my favorite resturant down in keene, The stage. We pretty much died we ate so much. Then joys pool party to continue to eat. After that, beckys house to watch a movie and sip on some wine. For ni nights, i shared a comfy big bed with my comfy boyfriend who had to wake up at the ass crack of dawn to go to work.. and i just slept in :-D

Now i have to friggin clean out/ pack shit for school. This is the worst part

3 days... can't believe its only that many...

thank god it's friday

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 01:10:44 GMT

2 weeks from today, and im gone.

i don't want to leave for school yet. i'm not ready. i feel like its been constantly on my mind. Having to leave my family and move out of my house again, and move into a place that's far from being titled home..and leave my best friends and my sweetheart. idk, i just feel like i want to scream whenever i think about it, so i can get out my frustration and saddness. i don't want to go. i want to be here. i dont know if i can live without seeing you.

today's my dad's birthday and my mom and i made him a nice dinner :-) and my gramma came over to join. it was nice, and he was really happy. i feel bad that i havent spent much time with my parents this summer, not as much as i hoped. Tomorrow we are leaving bright n early in the morning to go down to my grandparents house in the berkshires for my aunt and uncles wedding anniversary party and my grampies 80th birthday party.

one week left of work. 5 more days at camp, and 1 more day at cvs. This has been the craziest 8 weeks of working of my life so far i think. i've never felt so tired and run down every day in a row. i feel like ive missed out on a lot this summer too. too much. i can't wait to relax the last week im home.

gerrys birthday is tomorrow and im sad im missing it, but i will make it up to her.

a lot of people left work today, people that i'm gunna miss a lot. it was really sad to see them go, and know that half of them are going to school across the states. i feel like i might not ever see some of them again.

my mom told me i had to start thinking seriously about where i want to study abroad. i have no idea where i want to go or when. or if i even want to go at all. ill have to save up way too much money and be in another country for a whole semester. i will miss everyone too much. i dont feel like i'll be good at being completely alone.

i might go to joys tonight with a few people. hang out with her and the pooping dogs.. :-( i hope she has a better night than her week. she needs to relax and enjoy herself. she doesnt deserve to be so overwhelmed.

good night mates.

mmm mustardy carrots

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 21:02:30 GMT

well my working day has come to an end. Thank god. rain sucks

my kids were real pains in the ass today, but i didn't care enough to wanna do anything about it... so i just let them be little shits. i wasnt in the mood to deal with it. But overall, my day went pretty well. Gotta work the late shift tomorrow and wednesday.. but all i think about is the paycheck status at the end of next week. "Life will be good nicky, life will be good..just hang in there" i dont know whats wrong with me lately, but when i get tired, i get SO tired. i can't even hold my eyes open sometimes, its so bizzare. i just need to make it through this hectic week.

26 days left.. and i'm back to hell. i'm not even close to being ready to start studying and stop working yet. And im definately not ready to leave my other half.. i don't even like to think about it bc it makes me sad. but its really hard not to. i am excited however about my major switcheroo and my roommate next year! Katie and i will have a blast living together. And i think im gunna do really good with communications and journalism.

Sometimes lately, i have been getting into these weird depressed moods where i can't quite figure out why i'm sad or what's wrong with me. It's scary sometimes. i try to blame it on PMS, but that excuse only works for so long b4 its just unbelievable. i think i might just need a vacation away from all the stress and start being more healthy. It's proven that eating healthy and taking care of yourself makes you happier.

I know one thing that does make me so happy. And i don't know what i would do without him.... it's undescribable...loveyoulove

my pup is getting bigger.. :-/ i don't want her to grow!! i want her to stay small and cute forever. poop.

Well i must go shower so i can go out and play tonight! With my cute, hunkish, sexy, scandelous boyfriend :-D

Good day

It's Friday!!

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 23:10:53 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Nicky
Birthday:	April 7
Birthplace:	Nashua,NH
Current Location:	Merrimack/Keene, NH
Eye Color:	Green
Hair Color:	Red
Height:	5'3"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right handed
Your Heritage:	irish/polish/german
The Shoes You Wore Today:	brown flip flops
Your Weakness:	pina coladas, mint chocolate chip ice cream, your smile, sunsets
Your Fears:	heights, birds (esp. seagulls), big 18 wheelers, the dark
Your Perfect Pizza:	pepper and onion
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Make Dean's list at school! Continue to have the best boyfriend in the world
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	def
Thoughts First Waking Up:	you, "UGGHHH i don't wanna friggin go to work", and "dog stop biting my face!"
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes, ass
Your Bedtime:	when im tired
Your Most Missed Memory:	summer of 2003, making ridiculous money
Pepsi or Coke:	coke? i honestly don't really care.. they kinda taste similar to me
MacDonalds or Burger King:	definately burger king
Single or Group Dates:	depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	ummm i kinda like snapple.. but Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	tWiSt... but i really like cake batter
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	ugh.. yes
Do you Swear:	ugh..yes
Do you Sing:	Ohhhh yeah! love it
Do you Shower Daily:	oh yes.. with exceptions
Have you Been in Love:	i am in love
Do you want to go to College:	i am going currently
Do you want to get Married:	eventually.. when life is good
Do you belive in yourself:	most of the time, but sometimes i just get really down on myself
Do you get Motion Sickness:	ugh.. only driving to school on 101..BLAAAHHHH
Do you think you are Attractive:	i think i'm alright looking.. definately not hott
Are you a Health Freak:	kinda yeah.. used to be like crazy, but then i got fat.
Do you get along with your Parents:	yes. well, most of the time anyways
Do you like Thunderstorms:	not really. The big booms get me scared
Do you play an Instrument:	nope. Kinda wish i could pick up some guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	not alcohol! dear me!
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	ummm... probably not. We're broke
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	i think i may have..
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	a whole box? WOW
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	i dont have any desire to eat sushi.. or anything raw for that matter
In the past month have you been on Stage:	i dont think so
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	surprisingly no.. this is the first summer i havent gone skinny dipping.. YET
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	yeah my boyfriends sweatshirt
Ever been Drunk:	uh yuuuh
Ever been called a Tease:	hahaha
Ever been Beaten up:	yeah by my dog
Ever Shoplifted:	yes
How do you want to Die:	peacefully
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	something that makes me happy and pays me good money so i can live a great life and travel around the world..
What country would you most like to Visit:	Austrailia, England, France
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Green with little brown specs
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	SHORT
Height:	taller than me.. short enough to kiss without breaking my feet
Weight:	doesnt matter
Best Clothing Style:	ron
Number of Drugs I have taken:	1
Number of CDs I own:	a whole bunch
Number of Piercings:	5
Number of Tattoos:	none yet... that shall be my end of the summer treat.. if i decide what the hell i want and where
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	a bunch
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

it's finally over

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 06:27:56 GMT

this week has finally come to an end. i don't think i can describe to anyone how god damn excited i am :-D

Last night was our camp overnight. i only had 4 kids end up staying the night, and luckily they all made it. Ron and Trevor came to visit me during the theater/dance show. we all shared a pint of lo'main.. it was amazing. i was so excited that they stopped by. Too bad i ate probably half of it by myself. (yeah so how about that diet plan.. :-/) i promise myself.. i'll start someday and stick to it. And then due to my wonderful little shits, we won the "cleanest bunk" contest. thank god my kids are 5 and make all their messes outside. we won an ice cream party! and all us counselors got to pick our own pint of ben and jerrys. Chubby Hubby bitches!

Wed-today was probably the most stressful few days i've had in a while. i found out some information in my family that really tears me apart. im really pissed about it. Also, ive just had to work SO much. i'm so sick of working doubles. only 5 more weeks of this bull shit. and the weather has just been unbearable. And i deal with unnecessary bullshit every friggin day at camp its ridiculous. but im not even gunna get into that.

i got to see my sweetheart today.. ever so excited :-D We just had a great big cuddle session and were going to watch the butterfly effect, but.. well i don't know what happened there. but i did get to fall asleep and wake up next to him in about 2 hours. it was great i love the times we spend together. love you.

my dad came home from asia today. he's probably exhausted. But while he sleeps in tomorrow, my mom, gramma and me are going out to breakfast. i'm not sure where we're going, but i can't express to anyone how happy breakfast food makes me. uh i already know exactly what im going to get... depending on the omlet situation.

i can't wait to go to barnes and noble tomorrow to get myself something decent to read. it's nice having a little extra cash every now and then. plus i think ronnie poo is coming with me and we're going to possibley pick up dave and cara on the way home. yay!

yeah.. so my mom found a bottle of vodka in my room today.. oops. that was kinda akward.. hearing my mom ask me if i was an alcoholic.. i laughed. plus, i hate vodka. eww.

but my big made bed is crying my name loudly.. so i'm going to go see what it wants.

good night mates